Today, I made the biggest decision ever in my life. A strong decision that I know this will really help me to grow as a whole person. A will that allows me to find what my heart really desires, but sometimes I can't hide not to feel anxious about it, which makes me think twice and feels doubting about my decision of pursuing or not to pursue. It is a very risky decision because you do not know what is waiting for you in the end. I've always wanted to feel the positive way that I am doing the right way. And at the back of my wildest thoughts where I hated myself sometimes, because I tend to overthinking about the situation I am right now like what if,.. what if..like that..and another what if.. Oh!mey gee!!! I nakakabuang ang mag isip!!!
It was 2 week ago when curiosity hit me, and because I am little curious and I was like a detective I am detective conan) for that moment. And maybe because I am OC in making decision where I need to know everything before I make a rightful decision. As I opened my laptop and starts to do my investigation and gathered all the information needed for my echos report like taking notes because this will be the most important data to use for planning. When you make a plan make sure you have to set goal, the willingness to commit, and the progress for your goal to achieve. A plan with action is great way I discovered myself when in terms of decision making because I want to know everything may it be positive or negative outcome as long as I am aware of it. It may sounds so crazy for others but this is me afraid to make a decision and regrets eventually.
After for more than 2 week of investigating, gathering information and planning now I am waiting and praying for the outcome that may turns into a positive. Before, I was hesitant to this because I don't have any idea at all about this thing and always having second thoughts of not to or go on with it. It was 50-50 or win or lose situation and the only thing I can do for is to pray that I can surpass this thing.
According to Robert H. Schuller and one of his motivatinal words said " I'd rather attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. "
His words struck me about not giving up if you have something in your hearts you desire most, then try your luck as they say because you will never know the outcome if you do nothing.
Be patient. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
May the Heavenly Father bless me for the decision I made. I know that everything happens for a great reason.
Aimee
